If you have come this far into the post and are not sure what you're looking at yet then you probably don't know me personally, I have wanted to make some work around my life with Endometriosis for many years now but I have never been able to do too much during the worst of it each month... during those days I can't really focus on the approach, let alone the execution of making art. I do have about 5 pictures from 2009, some self-portraits and some images from the darkened room I would make for myself during my monthly, self-imposed confinement. Those shots were taken on a DSLR and honestly, it's a hassle thinking about getting the 'big camera' out... the pictures you see here are phone-cam pix... Three cycles in and I am still enjoying this project!
"I believe great people do things before they are ready." I have found myself in a space recently where I am leaning into the things that really bring me joy... those 'life-giving' things! I am leaning into the new people in my life that I am working with and they are affirming some truths that have been revealed to me time and time again over the last few years: communication is key, few things in life are binary: wrong/right, black/white, good/bad etc. and there is NEVER going to be a 'perfect' time to make or do new things! I love that Amy Poehler quote above! I am also realising I don't need to 'push away' from things and people and ventures if my natural state is stable... that has been a very unhelpful frame of mind in many ways. If my boundaries are firmly in place and I am wearing my values on my sleeve there's no need to run, to push away. When I am solid in my world I can 'lean in' when it's needed, when I want to and when it's important to. I have had a quilt in storage that I have been working on for TWO YEARS! It doesn't even have patches... it has panels... so what is holding me up?
The quilt is for my daughter and we live in quite a cold climate so my goal is to get this project finished for her before Winter. She'll need it and I really need to get this project DONE. I have too many outstanding projects in my life right now and I want to spend this season DOING! The 'to-do' list of daily parenting and life tasks is tough enough to get through and yet I keep adding projects and ventures to the list... there is A LOT of my personal creative projects and it feel like they have been outstanding for years now and I have to admit I VERY frustrated! But how fabulous are these colours? That printed cotton made to look like crochet Granny squares is just THE BEST. I would love to be able to make a big Granny square blanket for my couch but I suck at knitting and crochet. So this fabric was a very exciting find. "I will not have my life narrowed down. I love old photobooth pictures. These beautiful young womyn inspired me one night whilst playing around on my phone with some digital symbols and florals. There is something strong and also yet also vulnerable coming through in each woman's face. Who are they? What are their stories? Beautiful, beautiful womyn! If you have come this far into the post and are not sure what you're looking at yet then you probably don't know me personally, I have wanted to make some work around my life with Endometriosis for many years now but I have never been able to do too much during the worst of it each month... during those days I can't really focus on the approach, let alone the execution of making art. I do have about 5 pictures from 2009, some self-portraits and some images from the darkened room I would make for myself during my monthly, self-imposed confinement. Those shots were taken on a DSLR and honestly, it's a hassle thinking about getting the 'big camera' out... the pictures you see here are phone-cam pix...
A twenty-two day cycle isn't the shortest cycle I've ever had but it still feels too short. It wasn't even the end of January and I was into my second bleed for the year. I have been tracking my cycle closely this month in an effort to understand myself better and pinpoint the times when I have more energy and when I need to get more rest and it was really helpful. It's always really helpful and I really recommend all bleeding womyn do this, Anyway, once again, what came from the shapes left on the sheets were pretty funny. Endometriosis is not fun, sometimes menstruation isn't fun but this little project is FUN! |
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